Trusting God

It's crazy to think that I have 7 days until I am a senior, and that 1 year from now, Lord willingly I will be graduating. As much as I am excited for this, I am kind of freaked out because all that I've ever known is about to change. I've lived my whole life under this shell that I call home. Once I step onto that college campus of wherever I go, I am starting something will change me and really decide the rest of my life. Now I am a very nostalgic person, and thinking back to all the memories I have of my childhood, growing up in this house, my dad dying, and all the memories of high school that I have made already and will make senior year, it really makes me sad that I am leaving all this behind. That being said, I am so excited for the future, even though I have no idea what it holds. This brings me to the purpose of writing this. I was sharing with my friend about how I want to go to Cedarville University to become a pastor. This is truly where I feel God calling me as of now. That got me thinking though, I am going to a pretty expensive college, to go into a field that does not make good money. Now the world, who does not know the extent of God's power and the crazy awesome ways He works, would think this is an absolutely absurd idea and that I should go into a career field that would get me the nicest car, the biggest house, and the wife and the kids and the whole deal. My response to that though, is that that is absurd. Why not serve the God of the universe, who by the way deserves full honor and glory, even if it may lead me into debt. Before I go on, I don't want to imply that God wants us to blow all of our money. He wants us to handle it with care and efficiency, all the while using it for the advancement of his kingdom. Back to my point, I will have to trust God for my college funding, then after that I have to trust God to support me and a possible family later down the road while trying to pay back student loans. It seems to me, that I will be on a cycle, not just financially, but my whole life, where I have to trust God completely to support me and to lead me. The more I follow God, the more I have to trust in him. I cannot help to think of Paul, where he had been persecuted, stoned, imprisoned and shipwrecked. He had given his whole life to the cause of Christ. He had no regrets of his life, even though he had followed God to the point of his own death. He had no bitterness towards God even though he could have. You see, the more Paul followed God, the more Paul had to rely on the goodness of the Lord. Paul even got to a point where he didn't care about his own suffering, as long as the name of the Lord was proclaimed. He trusted God so much that he put his life on the line so that God's name would be praised. That there is trust. Even Jesus had to trust God, trust that his death would become the way by which the world would be saved, and also that he would be resurrected. I want to have this trust in my life. And I encourage all of you reading to aim for the same level of trust that Christ had in God.