So I guess it all started this Sunday night when I watched Courageous. During the movie I could not help but think about my dad and all the time I had with him and all the time I haven't had with him. I haven't really thought about childhood memories in a while because I was so focused my future. But as I near the end of my high school career, I can't help but think back. I even started crying during the movie because of it.
I don't like to sulk in the past, especially with my dad, but the more I got to think about it, the more I realized what I've missed with losing my dad. I long for that relationship with my father that I know can't be repaired, but I do know that I will see him again and I can not wait. It's funny though, how the little things can spark such vivid memories and recollections.
All that being said, I do feel like I have gained so much through losing my dad. I know that I have drawn so much closer to God, and my relationship with my Father in Heaven has grown so much more than it might have if he hadn't died. I don't take things as much for granted as I had. And I have thought more about what my future holds for me. I've come to the conclusion though, that nothing, absolutely nothing is as important as my relationship with God and I'm not going to let anything, no matter the consequences come between God and I.
You may be wondering for the reason of the title because I haven't really explained why it's called that. It's called A Broken Heart because all of the stuff I've been talking about has really impacted my heart this week and really broken my heart down. I can't wait to take this broken heart on my youth groups ski retreat this weekend and see what God will do.
Dear Adam, I don't even know what I would do if I lost one of my parents. But I can say with a lot of certainty that I would not handle it as positively as you have. It's really amazing how you have grown in your faith, love, and trust in God rather than questioned and turned away from Him. It's a pretty great testimony to His power because I know that that kind of growth and positivity could only come from Christ.
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