This Is Me

On my mind I consistently have the thought, who am I really? My answer is that I am a person. A child of the Living God and Servant of Christ. I like gloomy fall and winter days, they help me think better and ponder deeper thoughts. I like things that are dark and have an certain feel. This is really hard to say because I don't have a good way to describe it. Some people like flowers and sunshine and summer, although those are good and I like them when I'm in certain moods, I prefer the moonlight, snow, leaves of fall, dreary days, and hopeless situations. It is there where I feel I'm closest to God as well. I have to lean more on God than on myself and in my opinion, the more out of my hands the better. This is really hard to say because it makes sense in my mind but I can't make light the thoughts I have sometimes. I also love women, not particularly a woman, but their kind in general. It's through them, a select few of close girl friends I have, that I see God and his beauty and grace and kindness and love and passion and this list could go on and on. But I want to focus on the beauty aspect of it for now. Women are beautiful. Plain and simple. They remind me a lot of the beauty of fall mixed with the freshness of spring combined with the graceful fall of snow in the winter (It's a compliment) added with the joy of summer. But I digress. I enjoy reading my Bible, and I love listening to music. I love slowing down and watching the world go while taking time to look at the simpler things of life. I love pouring out my heart to my Lord, even if it means I cry, and how much I grow closer to God through those. I love my friends and family and will always stay by them. I sing really loud in the shower and I'm not ashamed of that. Being myself is one of my first priorities, and school is not one of my first priorities. I love helping people in need or just giving people advice and if you ask me I will help you, on anything. I absolutely love to read and how they transport me into different worlds. I've always wanted to gallop on a horse, and also I want to ride a lion. I look at the smaller things in life just as much as the big. I don't get easily stressed out and try to keep a level head on things. I am stubborn but can be persuaded if the reasoning is good enough. I love women, especially those close to me, you know who you are. I love my friends, especially those close to me, you know who you are too. And I love my God, and I am blessed that He knows who I am and that He is always close to me. This is me.