Wayumi: A Trip to be Remembered

Throughout my trip to a camp called Wayumi, God has taught me not to be selfish. In thought it seems so simple, so small. Nonetheless, God has shown me that I am selfish in so many ways. There's two specifically though, in mind and in spirit. In mind, my thoughts were selfish. I looked out for only the betterment of me. I never put anyone but myself in first. In spirit, I considered myself greater than those who were smaller in faith and even those who have not heard the good news that Christ died to save them. God showed me, humbled me to the point where I realized, that I am a sinner just as much as the ones who have not heard. I am in the same boat as those who I have been commissioned to save! If it were the Titanic, I thought myself to be first class, top of the line. Even though the ship would be sinking, I wouldn't risk my life to help save those who were stuck in the lower levels of the ship to help them be saved. In the same way, I considered myself higher, greater, than those below me and not as mature in my faith. Even thought the Bible says that we cant do anything to earn my salvation, and even though I knew that, I didn't act like it. God really challenged me on this trip to put myself behind and put Him first. In one of my journals I wrote, "I know I have faith of some sort, faith that God exists and did what His word tells us. But even that is not enough faith. I need to have faith to let God do with me what He wants, and for faith to know that in whatever that may be, everything is under His control and that I will be safe in His arms. I've realized that this life is not about living, but dying. Dying to sin, myself and this world, to be crucified with Christ. And through the death of those earthly things, to find life of the eternal kind in Jesus' blood." This has really been the call of my heart ever since I wrote it. I need to be focused on Christ only, for once you eat of His bread and drink out of His cup, you will never have to eat or drink again because He will satisfy you. That has really come into play this week. I've realized through God that earthly things may satisfy you, for a short time. With sin you keep having to go back and do it more and more to be satisfied while in Christ you only have to go once. There is nothing on this earth that will satisfy you  more than Christ. I hope to spend the rest of my days glorifying Him, whether in speech or actions or both. This life is not yours to live for yourself, but for God. And even when your living for God, you may be called to sacrifice your earthly body because of Him, but it would be so worth it. In all honesty, I would be honored to give my life up for Christ because through that death, life would be gained. This trip has showed me a lot more than that but that's all that's on the top of my head. Don't be like Jonah, and don't waste your life!