Trusting God

It's crazy to think that I have 7 days until I am a senior, and that 1 year from now, Lord willingly I will be graduating. As much as I am excited for this, I am kind of freaked out because all that I've ever known is about to change. I've lived my whole life under this shell that I call home. Once I step onto that college campus of wherever I go, I am starting something will change me and really decide the rest of my life. Now I am a very nostalgic person, and thinking back to all the memories I have of my childhood, growing up in this house, my dad dying, and all the memories of high school that I have made already and will make senior year, it really makes me sad that I am leaving all this behind. That being said, I am so excited for the future, even though I have no idea what it holds. This brings me to the purpose of writing this. I was sharing with my friend about how I want to go to Cedarville University to become a pastor. This is truly where I feel God calling me as of now. That got me thinking though, I am going to a pretty expensive college, to go into a field that does not make good money. Now the world, who does not know the extent of God's power and the crazy awesome ways He works, would think this is an absolutely absurd idea and that I should go into a career field that would get me the nicest car, the biggest house, and the wife and the kids and the whole deal. My response to that though, is that that is absurd. Why not serve the God of the universe, who by the way deserves full honor and glory, even if it may lead me into debt. Before I go on, I don't want to imply that God wants us to blow all of our money. He wants us to handle it with care and efficiency, all the while using it for the advancement of his kingdom. Back to my point, I will have to trust God for my college funding, then after that I have to trust God to support me and a possible family later down the road while trying to pay back student loans. It seems to me, that I will be on a cycle, not just financially, but my whole life, where I have to trust God completely to support me and to lead me. The more I follow God, the more I have to trust in him. I cannot help to think of Paul, where he had been persecuted, stoned, imprisoned and shipwrecked. He had given his whole life to the cause of Christ. He had no regrets of his life, even though he had followed God to the point of his own death. He had no bitterness towards God even though he could have. You see, the more Paul followed God, the more Paul had to rely on the goodness of the Lord. Paul even got to a point where he didn't care about his own suffering, as long as the name of the Lord was proclaimed. He trusted God so much that he put his life on the line so that God's name would be praised. That there is trust. Even Jesus had to trust God, trust that his death would become the way by which the world would be saved, and also that he would be resurrected. I want to have this trust in my life. And I encourage all of you reading to aim for the same level of trust that Christ had in God.

Basketball

So I've felt it on my heart that I should try out for basketball this upcoming year. The first open gym was today and it was exhausting and I didn't do all that great. This really goes to show though, that I can't do this on my own strength and talent. I know that God has given me an ability to play basketball but I know that my skill alone will not help me make the team. It's truly a humbling experience because I've realized once again that I can't do things on my own and I have to rely on God. It's cool also because it gives me a huge opportunity to witness to a lot of people and I'm super excited to see how God will use this experience to advance his kingdom. So I would just ask for prayer for this, especially for the strength to persevere through tough trials and to rely fully on God and not on my own strength.

Poems from during school

Tears rushing like a waterfall,
Can't stop now, I've come to far.
I'm going in, I'll give you my all.
Forget the world, they've given me too deep a scar,
My life's for you God, I'll answer your call.
My life's for you God, I'm answering your call.


This was my "valentines day special"

When I saw you in the street, standing out like a rose,
I could not give up hope for my heart it knows,
That your beauty falls on me, as gently it snows,
But you don't know me, for that's how love goes,
Again my heart's alone, like when the rooster crows.

Forgiving

I feel that recently I have seen a lot of people in sin, or confessing sins an stuff like that, and I know I would have used to condemn them and say how bad of a person they are. But I know that within the past year, God had really given me patient love for people, and made me realize that their sin, despite the man made weight added to it, is just as bad as any sin I've committed. I have no room to judge people for their sins because I'm just as much a sinner. I hate it when people sin, but I love helping people through it because I've probably gone through similar or applicable situations where God has brought me out of that sin and I want to encourage them to not give up because there is hope. I absolutely hate it when people condemn one another in sin. We have no room to condemn, but we have to keep each other accountable in our sins and be willing them to confess them to each other. I feel like this has been a reoccurring topic within the past few weeks. I pray that you will confess sins to one another and I pray also that they will not condemn you. I really just want to see more of this in my life and in my friends.